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Monday night was so so much fun. My friend and I got horribly lost, cause we cannot navigate Boston to save our lives, but made it to the place just in time. Blake put on a freakin' amazing show. He is honestly one of my favorite people to see perform live. It was such a blast.

If you want to see my pics, those are here:
http://s5.photobucket.com/albums/y163/motivateme182/Blake%20at%20Great%20Scott%2010%206%2008/

And videos:
What'cha Got 2 Lose/Surrender:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5C2v232v0oY

I Choose Noise/Message in a Bottle/Love Song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S2sMpy5iuVY

Love or Torture (New song, SUPER catchy and fun!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KDFJJVieFJo

You Give Love a Bad Name: (okay, the 1st chorus right when he says "and you play your game" - totally points at me! lol I love it)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQUm2IcnPYw

I remember being psyched like, months in advance to watch the VMAs because there used to be so many awesome performances and surprises to look forward to on the show. It seems like the past few years, it just keep sucking more and more. This year's was probably the worst and most boring I've ever seen, and from the sound of things, I'm not alone in thinking this.

Britney and Jonah's opening was pretty funny. It seems like stuff went downhill after that. I didn't find Russel Brand that funny. They need to have an awesome comedian host it for once. I vote Dane Cook for next year, but that's just me.

I'm a Britney fan and all, don't get me wrong - I'm happy she was back and she looks great, but I couldn't help but think it was rigged for her to win all 3 awards she was nominated for. Maybe she didn't want to come back after what happened last year and they promised her moon men if she did!

I was really glad to see Slash, and happy that Linkin Park won for best rock video. lmao @ Joe telling Shia LaBeouf that "Transformers rocked!"

Paris Hilton: gag me. She looked like she didn't even know what she was doing there. I don't know if she really is that dumb or it's all just an act, but I wouldn't be able to stand being around her for 5 minutes. I don't know how anyone will survive being on that new show she's got coming out.

I'm pretty sick of hearing about The Jonas Brothers and Miley Cyrus, because they're just everywhere. But I guess it's exactly how it was back in the day when we were all into BSB and NSYNC lol but you know, at least those guys were actually good live.

It's bad enough when rappers let their baggy pants hang off their asses. But it's even worse when they do it with skin-tight pants! Who was that anyway, with the red pants - Lil Wayne or something? Wtf was that?! That offended me LOL. Huge fashion no-no.

Pink's performance was the only one I enjoyed. Always like her music and her performances always have something crazy in them.

I think that's all for my rambling. It's so not the VMAs to me without at least one band that I like on there. Hopefully Metallica's new album will slay everyone this year and there will actually be someone good there next year! I'm already calling it, best rock vid next year goes to them.

I lost my Mom on the 19th. It's definitely been the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. Even worse, we don't know what happened to cause her death. And probably won't know for another few months. She had gone to the 7-11 up the street and when she came back, asked my brother to take out the trash. When he did it and came back in to tell her it was done, she was passed out and he came to get me. We tried to wake her up, but I checked and she wasn't breathing, and her lips were going blue. 911 got there pretty fast, I'll give them that. She had a weak pulse when they checked, and by then I was just hyperventilating and completely freaked out. But they wouldn't let me ride in the ambulance. When we got to the hospital, all I was saying was that I couldn't wait to yell at her for scaring us so much.

When I told the nurse at the desk that they had just brought my Mom in, her and the other nurse looked at each other like "oh shit." That's when I knew something was bad. I honestly thought that she just had heatstroke or something and that she would be okay. This nurse took us into the "family room," and we just sat there for a few minutes, not knowing what was going on. And then a doctor came in and totally shattered my life. He said that she was really sick and hadn't had a heartbeat for about a half hour, but that they were still trying. I lost it. My brother lost it. We weren't expecting that at all. And we were there alone and all I wanted was to call my Nanny and I couldn't get my phone to work. I think I went through every emotion - I was angry, I was scared, I was sad, worried, confused - and then he came back in and said she died. Just like that. I'm sure they deal with it every day but at that moment I just couldn't handle it. I was pissed at him. He asked us if we wanted to see her. I know that I would have felt awful if I didn't. So we went in and kissed her and told her we loved her. I'll never be able to get that image out of my head. They wouldn't even take the tube out of her mouth. They gave me her jewelry and a bag with her clothes in it (which is still sitting in my room cause I can't bear to open it yet). I didn't know what to do next, so the lady basically told me we needed to call a funeral home to get things set up, and then we went outside. A bum had the balls to ask me for money while me and my brother were bawling in the parking lot. I told him where to go, believe me lol!

More hard stuff came when we had to go to the funeral place and make decisions. I knew that she wanted to be cremated, so that was getting done. But we had to bring in clothes for her too. So my brother and I went through her stuff and got her favorite leather jacket, black jeans, her belt that I always tried to steal from her, and her favorite Slash shirt. I know that's what she would have wanted. And then the urn, everyone left that up to me. So I had the first verse of "Nothing Else Matters" by Metallica engraved on it. That was one of her favorite songs and we always went to concerts and stuff together, so I wanted to put that on there. I am going to bawl the next time I see them and they play that, but it's okay.

Each day is getting a little better. It's just so hard cause so many things remind me of her. We did everything together, she was definitely my best friend. It was my Nanny's birthday the day after all this happened, and my birthday was the 31st. We pretty much forgot about both of those days lol. My Nanny, by the way, is having a mesectomy soon so yeah - everything is hitting my family all at once. It's fucking ridiculous. I sometimes wonder what the hell else can go wrong. Obviously because of how it happened, they had to do an autopsy on my Mom. And that's why we won't know for up to 3 months the actual cause of death. I already requested a full autopsy report, because I want to know what the hell happened to her. My doctor wants it too, just in case there's anything to look out for in me. I'm glad that it happened so fast and that my Mom didn't have to suffer, I realize a lot of people have it a lot worse. I just miss her so much and it was such a traumatizing/shocking thing, it's gonna take a long time to get things back to normal again.

I think I have an addiction to reality tv shows. That's all I can call it, cause there's no reason anyone would normally watch almost every single one that's on, right? lol well that's pushing it a little, but I DO watch a LOT of them. That being said, I want to talk about 2 of them right now.

"I Love Money" started last night and that's the feel-good show of the summer, for sure. It cracked me up! "The Entertainer" from last season of "I Love New York" is a nutcase, so I hope he stays around awhile to keep things interesting. And their first challenge was to be in one of those money booths where air blows money all around you. One of the only rules was to not scoop the money off the floor. So right off the bat, Megan goes in there and scoops the money off the floor. And if that wasn't "dumb blonde" enough, Brandi C. went in right after her and did the same damn thing. Gotta love it.

Now...on to "The Two Coreys." I watched last season every single week. I love this show. I grew up in the 80's, come on - any girl that grew up in the 80's loves the 2 Coreys! First of all, I don't usually say things about people I've never met but Feldman's wife seems like a super bitch. Just putting that out there. It seems like this season she's trying to make herself not look as bad as last season, but it's still not fooling anyone. And why did they need to do a photoshoot of her in a bikini? I was watching it like "um, wtf is this?" She's no one! No one would even know who she was if it wasn't for who she's married to. The show would be so much better off without her. Anyway. I don't like how they treat Corey Haim at all. They make fun of him behind his back for putting an ad in Variety saying that he's ready to make amends and then act all nice to his face. Not nice! And then people on the Variety site leaving nasty comments, that was pretty shitty too. Sure he made mistakes, but he's just trying to put that behind him and start doing what he loves to do again and persue his acting career. He could have very easily given up completely, said "fuck it" and never acted again, but he didn't. People don't realize that part, they just want to see another washed-up child star. Hearing him tell the therapist that his life was empty and lonely was so sad. I just want to go give him a big ol' hug! lol 

So watch both of these shows, they're good! (They're both on Sunday nights - I Love Money at 9:00 on VH1 and The Two Coreys at 10:00 on A&E)

I realize I haven't posted since September. Kinda forgot about this place. It's okay though, cause in my boredom I've found it again! I figure I'll stick with my random thoughts about music and entertainment by writing about the "A Shot at Love" finale.

I don't know why I started watching the 2nd season when I really didn't watch the first one. I've never been a Tila Tequila fan, but like most reality shows, I started watching it and then wanted to see who ended up winning. So she dumps Bo on the last episode, picks Kristy, yet Kristy says she's not ready for a relationship with a girl and doesn't want to hurt her. And she gets mad at Kristy for "leading her on" the whole time. Um, what the hell did you do to Bo and the others that made it to the end? haha I thought that was the dumbest thing she could have said. Hypocrite! Whatever, that's over - now I want to see "I Love Money" on VH1! lol it's a bunch of people from "I Love New York," "Rock of Love," and "Flavor of Love" (3 of my favorites, might I add) competing for money. That should be interesting!

Well, I'm gonna go. I'll definitely try to update more often now!

I'm not the biggest fan of rap music but I'll admit to liking some of it and I do own all of Eminem's and 50 Cent's cds so I feel the need to write about the 50 Cent and Kanye West battle that they have going on. Apparently if Kanye's cd sells more than 50 Cent's, 50 said he'll retire (yeah right) lol. Didn't Jay-Z say that like 7 times already yet he's still making music?

Anywho. I think Kanye West is one of the most arrogant people ever. You don't have to know someone personally to know that, believe me. Just the way he carries himself and the things he says in interviews, you can tell. He can't even be a good sport about losing at awards shows, he has to bitch and moan when he doesn't win instead of congratulating the person that does win! He should be lucky he even gets nominated for anything, because his music sucks anyway.

So everyone should go buy 50 Cent's new cd, simply because Kanye sucks. There ya go, I said it, I do not like him! Hopefully someone agrees, otherwise I'll get a bunch of hateful comments lol. Who cares, everyone else bashes celebs that they don't like. Well there's not too many that I can't stand other than him and maybe a handful of others that I won't mention at this moment because it has nothing to do with the topic of this post.

I have been a Good Charlotte fan for years. Since before they had their huge breakout success with "Lifestyles" and before people were like "omgz it's GC!!!" After seeing them live 5 times, I finally got to meet them last year the 6th time I saw them and they were all such sweethearts, it made me so happy knowing that the band I've stuck behind for so long no matter what were actually really nice guys and worth every minute I spend working on my fansite for them (getdownwithgc.com). Paul even wrote to me to let me know he thought the site was kickass (yay!)

So why am I babbling on about this? Because I was upset with them over the fact that they toured with Justin Timberlake and the tickets were $150 and they were only getting to play for 20 minutes to open for him. Plus the fact that I couldn't go anyway, since the tickets were already almost sold out when they found out that GC were added to the tour and I refused to see them from nosebleed seats when I always see them front row for $20-$35. No way. And it upset me that I was upset with them.

It made me angry, sure. Most fans were upset over it. But I got over it, knowing that they did what they had to do. Record sales for GMR weren't as good as with their previous albums, and they needed the support so that they can do a headlining tour again. I get it guys, I understand, just never worry me like that again! lol

Over the past few weeks I've been putting together some dvds of all their tv appearances and stuff for a friend that lost all her GC stuff. And it made me realize that sure they've changed, but it doesn't affect their music and why I started loving them in the first place. After how far they came from being nobodies to blowing up the radio stations, I remember being so happy for them the night they won the Viewer's Choice Award on the VMAs in 2003, I almost cried. Especially when they made it a point to thank their fans and recognize the fact that without us, they wouldn't be who they are. I was so proud of them that night. And that's one thing that's never changed - they are still completely loyal to their fans and make it a point to show their love for us as much as we show our love for them. The fact that Joel dated Hilary Duff and then got Nicole Ritchie pregnant, or the fact that Benji is engaged to the "Barbie Doll" type of chick that he always used to make fun of - none of that should matter to a true GC fan. It's about the music and that shouldn't interfere with your love for the band. It's their personal lives, it shouldn't concern anyone but them!

They were on the Tyra Banks Show today talking about babies and marriage and all that - and even though they've grown up and things have changed, they're still one of my favorite bands. And they still make me laugh. (Example: they were washing a fan's hair and had these 2 water pitchers on a table. Benji picked them up and goes "I really like these jugs!") LMAO I love their cornyness.

I guess the whole point to this post is that the guys have been a huge part of my life and will continue to be. Without them, I never would have gotten into some of my other favorite bands, like New Found Glory and Mest, because they were always promoting them and saying "hey go listen to our friends' bands, they're awesome!" I love Good Charlotte, no matter how many people give me shit about it. I'm a fan for life!

I was so disappointed this year. I swear I've watched it every year since I was a little kid and there's always something I love about them. This year, nothing!

First off, I felt bad for Britney cause I wanted her to make a kick ass comeback and throw it in everyone's faces. She didn't do that at ALL. lol the lipsynching was expected, but she didn't even dance like she used to. I know she always said she couldn't dance in heels, that's why she always wore sneakers, and she had like 6 inch heels on last night so maybe that had something to do with it. But still, everything else was just...off. She's definitely not what she used to be.

Second thing...I thought it was gonna be cool that it was at the Palms in Vegas, but it was lame! There wasn't even a podium up there for everyone to put their moon men on when they won. What the hell? Sarah Silverman making fun of everyone was a highlight though, I think she's funny as hell.

Third...the bands performing in suites was retarded. I like seeing them on the huge stage, going all out. It was stupid that they did it like that. Like, when Gym Class Heroes won best new artist, they couldn't even make a fucking acceptance speech because they were in the room! They just showed them yelling and hugging! lol

So yeah...can you tell I wasn't impressed? Didn't enjoy it at all. I didn't even watch most of it, I kept flipping back so I could watch my other shows. (Rock of Love, The Two Coreys). Blah, I hope it's better next year!

Yes, Tony Lovato's new band. Being a huge fan, I was so bummed about Mest breaking up, but this totally makes me happy to hear him sing again. Their songs are so good, definitely worth checking out. ESPECIALLY "Like Always," featuring M. Shadows of A7X. It's such a pretty song, I'm in love with it. Their myspace is http://myspace.com/apermanentholiday

I think I'll use this instead of my livejournal to spaz about exciting music from now on. Just random babbles!